Challenge: day 9 & 10

I know you’re probably thinking poorly of me for falling behind on my blogging challenges. Hear me out, I was out of town visiting with my Daddy. While I was there I got to catch up with some other family and friends. It was really nice. After all, I don’t get to see them that much now that I live so far away.

Now, let’s get back on track!

Wow, have I really missed 4 days? That just means I have more to share with you!     While I was gone- I also fell behind on my devotionals. Before I talk about my devotional for today, I just want to say something-0 God knows what and when to put something on your heart, at the perfect time. Moving forward- this is my memory verse for today, “All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It straightens us out and teaches us to do what is right. – 2 Timothy 3:16”

The story that was included in the devotional- There was a child who didn’t understand why her family had to have devotionals every day. After she complained, saying that there was better things to do than devotionals- her dad asked her would she be eating for the day. Answering that she would be eating, her dad proceeded to say, “Well, I just figured you wouldn’t eat today seems how there is always something better to be doing.”  Instantly, she became aggravated and exclaimed, “Dad, I am not that dumb! You have to eat to make it through the day…” It was then that she understood exactly what her dad was trying to say, “Oh, You’re trying to tell me that it would be just as dumb to quit having my spiritual food, right?”

I can not tell you how hard this devotional hit my heart! As I said earlier, God knows what and when to put something on  your heart.

Day 9: parentinggoals

Any goal that I set, will always have something to do with my babies.- No matter what.

My Parent Goal: To discipline my children in love and understanding.

I have made this my main goal because my children are young. Due to them being so young; I have to discipline them, A LOT!  I focus on teaching them with love and understanding so I don’t put them in a shell. If I just lash out without them knowing what they’ve done wrong; it will push them away from me.

If they know what they’ve done, they’ll work harder at not doing that when they get older and it’ll build them into the wonderful young adults I know that they’ll be.

Day 10: don’teventhinkaboutit

Come on, all parents have ‘this moment’ with their kids. For example: your kids are playing around and you hear one fall. You know a child is about to come in your room crying that the other hurt them. Almost simultaneously, you hold your hand up as they walk through the door, “Don’t even think about it! Y’all were in there playing. I’m sure she/he didn’t mean any harm.”

I have that moment DAILY! It never fails. Sometimes, I wonder when they will start blaming their bad dreams on the other. No joke, that is how bad it can get! Once, I tell them not to say anything, they just turn around and carry on. Forgetting that the other had just “hurt” them. *Sigh*

Parenting is DEFINITLEY not for the weak!

-Kayla Diane

 

 

 

Challenge: day 6

Today has been in every way imaginable, nerve racking. Seriously. My fragile child that I spoke of yesterday, yeah, I’m going to place an order for bubble wrap. Tons and tons of bubble wrap. Needless to say, my anxiety has been through the roof!! I accomplished none of my house chores because every minute (or so it seemed) something was happening. Thank heavens, it is now BEDTIME! Carrying on……

In my devotional for today, it was talking about how we should be aware of the foes. “Dear friends, do not believe everyone who claims to speak by the Spirit. You must test them to see if the spirit they have comes from God. For there are many false prophets in the world. – 1 John 4:1″

Most people know of someone that fits that category. All we can do is pray. Most of all we should pray for strength, so we don’t become a part of that description. If we continue to spread love and truth, we are the light of the world. Just something to stop and think about.

And, now, for today’s challenge!

Day 6: #momfriends

As I have mentioned a few times, I am so lucky to be surrounded by a new group of mommy friends. However, tonight, there’s a particular someone that is weighing heavily on my heart. She was and will always be the literal definition of a true friend.

Her name is Susie. Gosh, she was a blessing. If she was still alive, I know she would have helped me with the kids, today, in a heartbeat. She always did. My girls loved her, as did I. Susie was the type of person who would give drop everything and help someone. Even if that someone just done her wrong an hour prior of needing her help- I say that because I have actually witnessed her doing so.

Yes, she made some of the dumbest decisions I’ve ever seen someone make-  More times than one! That’s just who she was. It touches my heart to know that before she passed she was trying to live her life for the Lord.

The last time I had talked to Susie was 2 days before the accident. She was asking about my son, who was only a month old at the time. Saying she couldn’t wait to get her hands on him and give him bunches of loving. Also, how she missed the girls and couldn’t wait to see all of us. We even made plans to grill out.

June 11, 2016: The kids and I had all woke up around 6:30 or so that morning. I remember feeding Jacob and laying him back down. When, all of the sudden, I felt like I couldn’t breath. I just figured I was having a random anxiety attack; so, I laid back down. About 15 minutes after my episode, I get a phone call from my dad. Something was wrong.

All he told me, then, was that there had been an accident and the interstate was shut down. Said that he just turned around and took his helper, Joey, home. Joey was Susie’s fiancé. So, I sat there, assuming that because traffic was just too bad, they had to wait to go in later- I was wrong. It was then that he told me the most heart crushing news. “Kayla, baby, Susie was in that accident. She didn’t make it. That’s why I had to bring Joey home.”…. Silence.

What more could he say? After we hung up, I hit the floor screaming and crying. “Please, God! Please, just let this all be a bad dream…”- Later on, reality sank in. This was real. She was really gone.

On the day of her funeral, it was pouring rain. It was raining just as fast and hard as the tears that were falling down my face. Being there and not being able to see her one last time, was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Time passed and I said good-bye to one of my best friends.

That was it, just like that. It was over.

Headed back home, I felt like a zombie. I was angry, confused, sad- just asking all the wrong questions! Then a song came on the radio called, “Thy Will be Done”; again, I lost it. It felt like someone was trying to tell me something. Finally, the rain ceased and the sun began to shine. Wouldn’t you believe that over our beautiful town, was a rainbow? Susie got her rainbow! I just had a sense of relief. I knew she was ok.

Though, the heartache still remains and I think of my dear friend often; I am so glad that I got to share such a sweet friendship with her. She truly is an angel.

 

 

 

Challenge: day 5

Today is my 5th day doing my challenge and I really feel somewhat of a difference. I have found something to do, that I sincerely enjoy.

I woke up a little late and I felt behind- like I’ve missed half of the day. When in reality, I only slept an hour late (7:00 am). I knew what I needed, so, I got up and read my devotional.     “Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.- Isaiah 55:9” As I read that verse, all I could think about was my eternal life with Jesus. I know that the verse and my thought do not really go hand in hand, but once I explain my reasoning- I’m sure you’ll get it.

In my life, I have made some amazing friends. They were/are absolutely fun to be around. However, their walk with the Lord isn’t very straight, just as mine wasn’t. We didn’t really stop to think about it because we seemed to be having too much fun doing other stuff. Now that I have moved 2 hours away from them, I’ve met some new friends. Friends that walk with the Lord. Regardless of how others walk, NOBODY on this earth is going to determine if I go to heaven or hell.

He is always higher, He’s the true friend that I need to follow. Him.

I know He looks down on me, often, shaking His head; All while showing me unconditional love.

 

Day 5: #lovethiskid

Just like there are some Christians who are living according to His word and there are some that are having trouble staying on track.- Our Father loves us all the same….some of us need a tad bit more guidance and discipline.

You’ve read about Alicia and Jacob (my oldest and youngest); However, I haven’t really spoken much about my middle child. There’s so much I could tell you about her but to keep it brief, she’s sweet and feisty- scratch that. Words can not describe this baby. She truly is one of a kind. I just felt compelled to talk about her today.

Starting off, Amanda is 3. She’s my petite, aka fragile, child. She’s given me more mini-heart attacks than most would like to endure. Unlike my other 2, I have to really hawk over her.

She tries so hard to do good but she also slips and causes more trouble than necessary. That’s where guidance and discipline, from me, comes into play. Handling her with care, I explain to her what went wrong and where she went wrong. Everyday, we go through this.  That’s just part of it! She needs me and I love her. While some days are better than others, I know that my love and patience is helping her overcome her hardest moments. No, I don’t always help her; There are some things that she just has to learn on her own- tough love.

Through it all, I absolutely love this kid.

 

-Kayla Diane